I read, write, and come up with some nonsense things especially when I'm hungry at night. I think by doing this kind of thing will save some of my thoughts or else I'll forget it like I have never thought of it. It's not all about bullshit or nonsense things. In fact, I can come up with amazing ideas that go to waste because I either forgot it or can't remember it. Constantly making your brain rack just to remember what is it again - how funny ridiculous it can be, but having a bad short-term memory sucks...
There's this kind of mental fog in my head that suddenly becomes clear in the devil's hour. Maybe it's the quiet, or lack of distractions, but I am so sure that the best ideas hits me when the rest of the world is asleep. Brilliant ideas, insightful connections, treppenwitz, even just a turn of a phrase I know will be perfect for a project. Then I blink - gone faster than you can say "putangina" because you forgot what you were just thinking.
My brain feels more like a colander than anything else at times. Especially at night, when hunger strikes and laziness do a synchronize dance on my poor memory.
So what do I do? When I do feel "sinisipag", I snag those thoughts before they disappear or else they fall into abyss. That's where I get jotting spree on my phone. Sometimes, what I write down under bright screen light is, well, pure nonsense and bs. Seriously, some nights the sleep deprivation must be playing tennis on my last five brain cells because the stuff that tumbles out would make even Dr. Seuss do a double take (lol I remember Bleue).
But hey, even amongst my stupid ideas, there are gold nuggets. Like, a crazy idea on how can I blame the government (tama ka na BabyM), a hilarious observation about something one of the art talks I attended, or maybe just the perfect sentence for that novel that's been collecting dust in my brain attic (one day, I swear!). The point is, I gotta write 'em before they disappear. Because forgetting a good idea is like accidentally throwing away a winning 6/58 lotto ticket - dead ass, even if you never technically had it in your hand.
Fingers cross, the next time I'll have this burst of ideas, I'll be there, ready to gamble my sleep, before they vanish into the memory graveyard. You should too. Who knows, maybe we'll be reading a bestselling book someday that all started with a sleep-deprived scribble about... well that depends on what damn decides to take over our brain tonight... or tomorrow.